My Experiences

All of my experiences of bullying aren’t pleasant as you can guess. But I learnt that there is someone out there to talk to and tell. So don’t bottle it all up tell someone.

If you tell someone then it can all stop. If you don’t want to talk to anybody at your school or at home then just come and talk to me. I feel ashamed now when I look back because I would never have been bullied if I had told someone but I didn’t.I first started being bullied when I was in Year One at school. Other kids would tease me when the teacher praised me for doing something well.

I was always selected to do jobs for the teacher and this didn't go down well with the other kids so they would give me the occasional shove or kick and would whisper about me behind my back. I always achieved well at school and this again bought on jealousy from the other kids. Groups would surround me in the playground and tease me for being "teachers pet". This was very hurtful but I was to afraid to stand up to them. I had lots of freinds at school but they didn't want to get involved so they would stand back and let them bully me.

When I was in year 4 I was bullied by children that were in year 3. I thought that it was all of my fault and I had to deal with it. In this case it was to say nothing and just hope that it would go away.But unfortunately it didn't until I told someone. Throughout my experiences of bullying I was put up against a brick wall, threatened, called names, hit, picked on after school, left out of groups, sent threatening emails and many others.

When you tell somebody it can turn your life around and it can change the person who you used to be. I always felt that I was the one to blame for what was happening and now years later I realise I could have stopped it quite early on. But fear stopped me from doing that. I thought if I spoke out then things would get worse. Some kids even told me that an elderly family member had been beaten with a baseball bat one evening and because I was so young I believed everything they told me. This was extremely upsetting as I later found out that this was not true.

The mental bullying I suffered was probably the worse, being called names and being told things that are totally untrue can stay with you for a very long time. The phyical bullying hurts at the time, but bruises heal and this is something which in time I got over.

I have been bullied via the internet in different ways. I have even been bullied through this website, but I can hit the delete button and that makes me feel so much better. I think that jealousy still plays a part but I enjoy the work I do so much that I'm not going to let an e-mail get to me.